The billboards went up in November 2012 here in Metro Manila, but I was only mildly interested. The only thing that seemed new to me was that it had two girls, two guys, and a reindeer. Then a nine-year old … Continue reading
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Yeah, I know it’s three weeks into 2014 by now (and almost a year since my last blog here – so so sorry – somehow the WordPress app on my “old” Blackberry can’t post), and it’s not that big a deal anymore. Still, I want to milk that blessing for as long as I can: Happy New Year!!
For almost two years now, our family has been planted in a church called New Life the Fort, a daughter church of New Life Christian Center based in Alabang, Metro Manila. So far, it has proven to be truly the Lord’s choice of the house we are to be planted in. Not saying it’s perfect, nor that the other churches we’ve been in are less, only that, as a friend once told me (about 25 years ago), it’s GOD who chooses where to plant you.
This year, NLTF’s theme is JESUS FIRST. And if you’ve been a Christian for any amount of time, you’d know this isn’t as simplistic as it seems. Because even for us Christians, it is not always easy to put Jesus first.
But we’re counting on His Spirit to help us do it even more proactively this year, for starters.
This past Sunday, our senior pastor, Jocel Evangelista (lookit! Even his name means “gospel”!), said something in his introduction that I believe was an answer to my heart’s prayer. He said, “God can do more in one second that we can in (he shrugs as he thinks) ten years.”
I knew God gave him that specific figure: ten years. I believe there may be others in the church with their own question, but that was assurance for me right there.
You see, 2014 is the tenth year since the fire that took my mother, and this loopy roller-coaster ride began. For almost ten years, I have been dealing with debts (tax debts, business debts, personal debts), and I know that in consequence, I have been living with constant stress. So to hear those words – that God can do more in ONE second than I can in TEN years – was like honey to my weakening body (anybody remember Jonathan’s power-surge during one of the battles in 1 Samuel?), or a taste of water in the wilderness. Although I must admit, it didn’t brighten my eyes or renew my strength like what happened to Jonathan.
Not at all.
It made me sigh, sit back, and relax. And when we got home from church, I fell asleep. Still wearing my church clothes. As in, I sat down on our bed, and next thing I knew, it was morning, I had a blanket on (Irl tucked me in) and Irl was snoring deeply beside me.
NLTF’s song for this time sings “We’re running, ’cause all that You are is all that we want now.” But non-conformist that I am, I am sensing a different leading.
You have been running for ten years now, and I’m delighted in how you’ve hung on to My promises. From now on, you just let Me carry you, and I’ll do the running.
Thank You, Lord Jesus.
I’ll do my best to keep you guys updated.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
It’s Monday morning here in the Philippines. Being at least 12 hours ahead of the continental US, I catch the previous day’s last Joseph Prince webcast in the morning. It’s a great supplement to morning time with Jesus. This morning … Continue reading
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After writing the previous blog, Irl and I had to get ready for our evening. As an accredited speaker for our MLM network, Irl had 2 invitations to the soft-launch of VMobile Technologies Inc’s latest program, mylife pro, and I was … Continue reading
Yesterday afternoon, my phone was stolen from me.
It was a determined effort to steal. Once I had sensed them trying, I had moved my bag out of reach, and the designated snatcher already moved away. But another member of the gang would not let him give up, and finally resorted to actually grabbing my arm and twisting me almost 180degrees.
I had not encountered such determination to do wrong before.
Or maybe I have.
I have seen a beautiful woman betrayed by a friend of 18 years — a friend whom she had tried to protect and help, but then she was beginning to get in trouble for his sake, and tried to call him to account. And in an effort to protect himself, the friend began spreading damaging stories. But for some reason, most of the people he called refused to take sides. But again, he was determined to do harm. And while he succeeded up to a certain degree, the truth has begun to trickle out from other sources.
And this morning I find myself asking the question: what am I to do against such determined evil?
I can live in fear. On our way home last night, I was in fear, clinging to Irl, finding a way to hold my bag so that I could protect it better, starting to shiver. I was thinking: “I have to get my truck fixed so I never have to ride public transport again!”
I can also live in anger and suspicion. But I’ve been there (for different reasons) and I hated it. And I have people around me now who live like this. I don’t like it at all.
Right now, as I process this, the nervous, fearful energy is finally dying down. My heart is slowing down, and part of me now wants to grieve. That phone was something I had prayed for, something we had invested in for the network business we had joined, which is starting to pick up, slowly, but surely.
But I also cannot deny the protective presence I was sensing all throughout. Yes, something got stolen from me. But we actually had much more with us yesterday, and all they made off with was a China-made android phone. Yes it’s a good phone — a great tool! But in the end, that was all they took. And it wasn’t like we were stupid. We fought. Maybe we could have done more — but I will not waste my time regretting what I could have or should have done.
I choose a different response. I choose to believe that God IS for me, and He is still in control. And no matter how determined evil is to harm, my heavenly Father is even more determined to bless and do good to me! Here’s what I wrote to my dear Christian friends on FB:
My android phone, which was our heavenly Daddy’s gift to me, was stolen yesterday. It had my Smart number, and all your numbers. But Daddy protected my more precious phone, my old myphone, which had my Sun number (for family purposes).
I am just waiting for my load wallet to get credited so I can load up my new Smart number and text you all. Naka-save pa rin kayo sa myphone ko. : )
Please pray for me. Part of me feels shy about asking for prayers, in the light of the requests that we have here. I mean, what’s a phone compared to cancer, di ba? But I know that Daddy doesn’t think the sudden fearfulness I am battling now is a trivial thing compared to Diane’s and Joanne’s situations. And I know we have all been learning that if it matters to us, it matters to Him. So I’m asking that you pray for my peace of mind, that I will not give in to paranoia in public transpo, that I will not look for loopholes to blame and condemn myself for what happened to me.
Throughout the whole ordeal, I was sensing God’s protection. It was only when I felt that one of the gangmembers – maybe he was the leader – was really determined to steal what he probably thought was an iPhone did I sense God say “Let it go.” And that moment was when they also let me go and got down, with only the Flare. Considering that I had another phone in that bag, and I also had my DSLR with me, and Irl had his laptop, because we were on our way first to Diane’s house, then to our network’s webcast (we stayed with Diane and Norman na lang. They really ministered rest to us. And Noah is a fantastic cook! SOOOO GRATEFUL FOR THEM!).
I thank the Lord He kept the girls safe at home, and even that it was me and not Irl, that I was between them and Irl, because I know Irl was also protecting me, and I’ve heard of how when it’s a man who struggles, they can go as far as stabbing him before running off. I know we were under His protection, and as with Job, He limited the harm that was meant for us to just one little item that He Himself had provided for before, and He can provide for again.
Thank you for your prayers. I thank God for you!
And to you who read this, I thank God for you as well. Thank you for letting me share.
I’d been thinking of giving up this blog. I feel that it’s gone the wrong way…that most of the things I’ve ended up posting reeked of my pride more than of Jesus. And I’m not sure I wanna go and check.
But when I checked in today, I found a pending comment from 30 days ago, so I went to look at the blog where the comment was. It was a great answer to my conundrum. So yes, while I have started a lighter-hearted blog (deescoveringlife.wordpress,com), I think Jesus wants me to keep Eyes on the Cross. Let me start 2013 with His reminder to me from way back June 1 2010. To commenter Nathan Christensen (you have a wonderful name, did you know that? Gift of God…son of Christ’s disciple), God didn’t just lead you to that 2 year old blog for your question, but also for my sake. I thank God for you.
Have a great 2013 with Jesus, everybody!
Originally posted on Eyes on The Cross:
I just read something that I have to react to. But I need to give a bit of background about me first.
I became a Christian in 1984, and it has not been an easy ride. I sometimes envy others who tell of how they were social problems before they heard about Jesus, and how His love turned them around.
I don’t have that kind of story.